I’ve always found the tragedy of poor health or fate romantic, and I could never illiterate why. I feel this film may have unlocked it.

Just want to point out that whilst this is another great film by Taika Waititi Thor Ragnarok still is my overall favourite. Still this film does a fantastic job at demonstrating most if not all forms/ types of love, some of which aren’t often shown in film or at least as subtly as this has achieved. As well as, showing a few risks and inevitabilities that come with them.

As this is a blog about Cystic fibrosis I will be mostly talking about love from that angle. Despite being in love just twice in my life I feel I may have something quite useful to say on it.

Now to kick things off we start with seeing the risks of devotion to others and unrealistic expectations we put on loves ones. Be it parents, potential lovers, friends or in this case a God. We first meet Gorr, he is suffering in a desert along with his young daughter. Unfortunately, she passes away and leaves Gorr to suffer alone and waiting for death to meet her in the “eternal paradise.” He soon hears a calling and finds an oasis appear in front of him. It is here he meets his god and finds, sadly, all his sacrifices meant nothing. A great skill marvel has is writing relatable villains. He suffered and watched his young daughter pass away on a promise of eternal happiness. He gave everything for an image set in his mind by the god and his fellow worshippers. This point is also touched on later in the film when Thor goes to Omnipotent City to meet Zeus and assemble a team of powerful gods to help on his quest. But I’m not going to go into too much info there.

We then skip to present day where we find Thor dealing with depression and has closed himself off after his relationship with Jane had ended. He tried meditation and distraction but that only masked his pain rather than heal it. Been there haha

We also discover Jane has now found herself terminally ill over 8 years after ending it with Thor. They had grown distant mostly because Thor had lost so many and he was scared of losing yet another. So, Thor became distant as did jane. There was love still there but she couldn't see how it would work.

We later learn that jane too was sacred of loss. To be honest when watching the lighter hearted marvel movies, I forget Thor has fought characters that are more than capable of killing a god and if often in life threatening situations. Genuinely I didn't really think of that until writing the second draft for this, but it fits so well for my analogy. Just because I have CF doesn't negate the threats and dangers everyone faces. Be it traffic accidents, random medical issues accidents at work etc. I just kinda assumed I'd be the one going first but I didn't think I may lose them. I remember talking to someone and they casually mentioned losing some friends on a particularly dangerous road they travel on regularly, and then mentioned a pretty scary story of the time they was in an accident and was hanging over a quarry to be pulled out the car by a friend who happened to recognise her phone and the skid mark on the road (I think I’m remembering that correctly) that was the first time I was scared stiff of losing someone.

Anyway, back to the movie 

Starlord notices Thor is lost and explains he found meaning and love although its implied they are one and the same. It is here that Starlord explains how feeling "shitty" over the loss of love is better than feeling empty.

This sums up something I find quite beautiful. There will always be pain where there is love, even in the best case. This may be where I have confused things in my head and somehow find beauty in any pain and suffering (on a personal level. Mass death, inhumane acts rarely and maybe never should be “justified.” Although this was a very interesting unit, I covered in my philosophy degree)

My pain made me who I am. My great pain came from great love.

Midway through we reach the raise to action part of the movie when the children of Asgard are taken and they are tasked to assemble a team to get them back.

Whilst the way to rescue the kids they mention another purpose other than love. It’s quite a sweet scene so I’m not going to spoil it. But I found it nice that they do briefly cover that love isn't the only thing that gives life purpose. Personally, I’ve seen for some its adventure, for some it’s their careers, all completely unique. Like me, I had given up on the idea of love at an early age, so I found purpose in trying to make those around me a bit happier, maybe try to inspire people, help with body confidence issues and ultimately try and leave the planet a bit better. That was until I found love and whilst I still try and do the things, I found there's nothing wrong with being a bit selfish and sometimes putting myself and that particular person first once in a while.

Finally nearing the end of the movie Thor speaks of love and its ultimate end. This tackles the aftermath of a deep love. Deep loneliness. This is what Gorr fears in the end and this is why he questions his decision, should he do the right thing.

Loneliness is a cruel emotion. There's eight billion people on this planet and yet we still have the ability to feel nobody is either aware of us, caring for us or understanding of us. To this day every night I pray to God. There are nights I don't have a lot to say, particularly, so I pray FOR God. I feel we have little true knowledge of our creator; we know of some of Gods acts and our own personal experiences but if Gods plan for us is so unimaginable then surely who God is can be seen equally as beyond our comprehension. A bug doesn't look at us as intelligent beings with complex emotions etc so when we scale that up to our understanding of God it boggles my mind. Imagine there is a God (should you be religious, spiritual, or not) Imagine how lonely they must feel. In fact, that’s a saying, isn't it? Its lonely at the top. Well, you can't get any higher than God. Yet I feel if his/her/their/its love can still fill our lives then it goes to merit this whole idea of “Love” in any of its forms and its power and wonder.

In summary I had a lot of what I just said is easier said than done. I know when I was truly depressed, I wasn't much thankful about feeling “shity.” In hindsight I do but going through it I can see how easy it is do lock your feelings away. But even being numb has its own downsides.

In the end I’ve seen myself as jane in the past. Playing with the threat to love gods.  But we are all just human, with the same flaws and mortality. I see the whole “better to have loved and lost, than never loving at all.” But I think we need to add a bit on. Love is a beautiful and fucking scary purpose. One we are all capable of be it thanks to God or (for anyone not religious or spiritual just a bizarre human affliction). But love isn't our only purpose, that is something we need to find or create for ourselves. We will all die one day and some of us may not have been as successful with our purposes as we wanted, but we can rest with knowing we still have this gift (or curse) called love that we can fall back on. Just remember to cherish any love as best you can and enjoy every second it lasts. You may not have long.

Side love stories in the movie.
-Stormbreaker (Thor’s axe) and Mjolnir/Mjölnir (Thor’s Ex hammer) are a bit more sentient and have a funny like nonsexual romantic relationship with characters in the movie. There are a lot of funny moments as a result 
- Brunnhilde misses her partner, so she drinks to numb the pain. It shows how a powerful (in all respects) woman or person can still feel incomplete without their “love”. Despite being very successful at her purpose of ruling and skills on the battlefield.
-Korg has two dads. Which at first seemed simple enough but in a previous film Korg mentions his mum and now I’m currently in a rabbit hole about ways species recreate and family dynamics of species. From my guess, Konan’s are all male yet one becomes a "mother"... I think 
- a funny line. While observing space dolphins Thor explains "they mate for life...in packs of six" just made me laugh and is also another form of love or relationship.