Been a while

Hay guys. There's been A LOT of people viewing my blog. Many of you have been looking at my boyfriend CV. Now, nobody has actually reached out yet that leads me to one of three conclusions.

1. I'm not quite their type, or what they're looking for

2. They was looking just out of curiosity

3. I'm too amazing (all my clothes are made from.... boyfriend material ahah)

4. Or three, the same as number 3 but they also think I'm now too sexy and it's intimidating.
   

Anyway, there may be some other options that I haven't considered but I'm pretty sure it's one of them.

Now time for some BIG news. I'm now 65kg. As I've said on my tiktok this is a massive achievement.

My goal with Ben was to reach 60kg. Now my program had finished and I'm now able to speak to my CF team about stopping my feeds permanently. I won't yet. I don't have the money to have a social life... yet. So the button is 1500kcal I get for free and I don't have to eat it physically.

But it feels amazing to have that option.

This program has honestly changed my life. I spoke a while ago on here about these dark thoughts of death and the anxiety it gives me.

Since going to the gym, these thoughts haven't really come up. Or when they do they don't last long. My sleep is now 1000% better too. I'm getting a good night sleep every night. I'm not waking up or end up at early hours irritated I need to be up for work.

My health has literally never been better. And I have another reason for that may be but ill get to that in a little bit.

As for my financial situation it's getting better. Unfortunately a few months ago, I had another huge hit to my wages due to my ex but she's working on fixing that. It just means I'm now halfway through my 30th year and I haven't had the money to do anything on my list due to other people and Vodafone being totally incompetent.

My social life is pretty non existent due to the tike I have at the gym, as well as having to be attached to my feed at 10pm. I hear from a couple close friends (Becca and Beth) and get the odd message from a few others. I understand that it doesn't take a lot to message but there are more then a few reasons people don't or can't message other than they don't care. I know for a fact this isn't the case and to top it off the majority of my friends still work weekends, while I work weekdays. So this is not something I take personally. I will be making more of an effort to see people once my feed is a little less of a priority.

Anyway that was all the "negative" news I have. I'm a little lonely and I'm skint for the next couple of months.

On the upside, my brother has a stag do next month and asked me and Alex to he his best man (well, best men). He has made a beautiful family with his soon to be wife and daughter (I won't name them for safety reasons) and I can't wait to see what the future holds for them.

And Alex is buying a house soon. All the more reason to pay him back sooner rather than later after he supported me and my ex through the shitty landlord a year or so ago.

So yeah that's about it. Things are definitely in the right place. Just need to actually spend time with people and enjoy life a bit more once my ex has given me my money so I can actually afford to do anything 😅

Thank you to all the new viewers and a bigger thank you to everyone that's stuck by reading the blog.

Keep going guys. Love ya xx