Following ok from the last post

Hi guys I wanted to update on the last post, especially after seeing the spike in visitors recently.

After a re-read of it, there was a very evident display of desperation from my actions and situation. It was something I was a little aware of but thought it was an odd one off moment but reading it and noticing the timeframe its clear to me this is a prolonged thing and it’s not something I want to continue. While there is still some shame and guilt there considering how my actions objectified the women I spoke about, I’m hoping that taking accountability and taking action, I can prevent it happening again.

It was disrespectful to them and also showed a lack of self -respect too. Allowing myself to tolerate relationships with zero effort or consideration, with multiple times getting stood up, catching them out in lies and still entertaining the thought of a potential relationship.

I’m pleased to say that I have ended contact with that ex, I deserved better.

As for Tee, I noticed when I summarised the evening I took her home, to anyone reading this it may seem like some feelings are still there for her. To elaborate, I only took her home because she couldn’t afford a taxi and was claiming she “didn’t want to be here”. Regardless of if it my ex, a friend or an acquaintance I am not leaving them in that state. I have never liked doing so and have done the same for my friends in the past, male and female. Anyway, I have no feelings for her and have stopped responding to conversations that don’t involve the money she owes me. I don’t want any potential partner in the future feeling insecure or awkward about that situation.

As for the future I am speaking with my therapist and working on building up my self-worth. Don’t worry I wont be finding support from any red pill or incels. As for looking for a relationship I have stopped looking… actively. While it is difficult wanting something I am happy waiting for something right for me and not the first thing that comes along. I will be looking at doing things that make me happy and see if that leads to me meeting anyone new. I have to admit it’s a shame I meet people regularly on the bar when I cover the odd shift, but they are all in their early 20’s and that thought makes me a bit unwell haha.

If anyone knows where I can meet a nice woman between 26-34 let me know. They seem to be hiding haha.

Take care everyone, and don’t worry I’m not becoming an incel anytime soon