Last one I swear

Even I am feeling like I'm giving off a pity me attitude right now and I know it's not irrational to feel like this when in the last week alone my cat had died and my ex has gone from wanting to try again in the future to making plans etc with someone else. I'm just going to post this. This is what I want someday but I have to accept that not tee could never be truly happy with me. Even if she chose me I'd spend all my life trying to stop her from feeling guilty but I know she's will never believe me. If I could convince some one of anything I would convince these good people that their inner mind is wrong. Like Joanna not seeing what I ment when I called her beautiful. Same with tee but especially tee. Her inner mind was constantly telling her she wasn't good enough, that I can do better than her, that she's going to be the death of me, that she's the reason for all the negative things that happened. That's why as much as I want and will do what's best for me I want people to be kinder to each other and hopefully tee and other will stop blaming themselves. I'll probably delete these soon anyway it's just gunna make it worse besides like I say even if I asked her to come back. She won't

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