Putting myself first

This morning I blocked tee. I had a fairly decent sleep but I think I just needed to not be here for a little while (don't worry I'm not suicidal) I woke up and I haven't stopped shaking. This was how my anxiety attacks presented so I'm hoping I can get that sorted before work this afternoon.

I told her how I feel about her and the situation but I didn't give her time to respond. I know she's just going to apologise and say she still needs me as a friend especially after us losing tigger but I know she will choose him and I didn't want to see that outright. I just prayed she'd come back but right now I need to put myself first and do what's best for me. I know it's a positive step I'm taking but right now it's making me feel sick.

I know I will be better someday so I'm going to push through till I'm there again. Thanks everyone I just want her to come back